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Saturday, July 31st, 2004
1:06 am
just like that last little bit of coke left in the can before you throw it away.
so at 8 in the morning i leave to go to yosemetie(i think that how you spell it but i don't care). i'm all packed and im ready but i don't know. i feel soo shitty. like this whole week has been kinda a drag and i meen there were the fun times and parts , don't get me wrong, however, all in all, this week sucked. so like i leave tommorrow but i don't really want to go. i kinda wanted to go to the x games and crap, but i will be gone. and plus, i guess i was a bit dissapointed in the week. like my parents have been gone the whole week, i baisically had the house to my self, and i did.........absofregginlutley nothing.i didn't even have to work and i still did nothing. and if that wasn't enough, i hurt myself...again. so lets recap, in the mounth of july, i was seriusly injured three times. that sucks!!!! so like on tuesday, i was doing a watermellon off the diving board( for all you non divers, thats kinda like an upsied down cannonball) and when my head hit the water it shoved my face into my knee and at the same time i tucked as hard as i could viloently thrusting my knee into my face and hitting like my upper cheek. where your eyeball/nose/cheek all come together. to tell you i still don't have feeling in my left nostrill, my cheek is still kinda swollen, and i have this nasty black eye. i tell you im a gluttin for punishment. oh yeah and when i hit myself, for a day and a half, it felt like my whole jaw shifted over to the left, and the top left teeth are still kinda numb and it hurts to chew on that side.

so yeah im also kinda stressed out about my current status w/ everyone and their momma's. i hate the fact that im people pleaser sometimes. its a viciuos cycle. i upset myself beacsue i put everyone elses feelings before my own, which upsets me, but i hate to see people upset, especially if i caused it. its kinda like im unhappy becasue i have to please...and i please becasue im unhappy, but at the same time i am happy...kinda in a way. i am like so greatfull for everythng i have and i have to say i have a pretty good life. i don't have to worry abot where my next meal is coming from, i have a roof over my head(and a nice one at that, we just got it redone like a year ago from my uncle tom R.I.P), my family is great even though they annoy me a lot of the time, and i get to do a lot of really cool things. like this week, very few people get to do a trip which im about to do. i guess thats why i am pist at myself. i should be so excited yet im notr jumping for joy or anything. in fact im kindy being a bitch about it.

so when i get back vans has me working 31 hour weeks untill september. which is cool, becasue i need the money, well i don't need it, i want it to buyt a bike. im not sure yet what i want. i like the gixxer 600, but i also like the honda cbr's(600) and then there are the harleys. and here i am worrying about crap. i meen i know im supper fiscial, everyone is. and if you say you arn't you are a damn liar. you might not be bad or extreme with it like having to have gucci this or LV that, but we are. it what makes us human, the way we are. why we like our music or dress the way we do, the shoes we ware, the cars we drive or dream about driving....... in a way why we go to school. i would love to say that the reason why im going to school is for an education. but if i did i would be a liar. the real reason why i and mostly everyone goes to school now a days is to get a good job, to then satisfy all of our wants and needs, but most importantly, our desires. becasue any one can get a job witha high school education or even none at that. sure life would be tuff, in most peoples eyes, but you could live. and the thing is, i don't know if i am critisizing the world we live in or not, becasue i see it, i kinda understand it and yet i am content with it and want to play. what the hell im talking too much anyway....

so i really don't know what the future holds for me. i always tell people not to expect soo much, infact you shouldn't at all, becasue when your expectations fall short, you are tramatized and when something good happens taht you are not expecting, it makes your day and makes you feel good about yourself and the world we live in. i guess i have to keep thanking the lord for all the blessings and lessons he bestows on me and thank him for every day that i am alive on his green reath. although in many eyes, this is a bad place to be, i belive its only tha bad company you hang around that makes a place what it is. and if you can change the company or make them, the world is a different palce.
but what do i know, i barley finnished my first year at el camino. sure i have accomplished a few things, but that doesn't make me anything untill i get a that paper. and by that paper, well i mean it in every sense of the way whcih that word can be taken, yet at the same time, i meen nothing.

Thursday, June 24th, 2004
10:52 pm
i always seem to use the same titles?
ahhh( that was a sigh,not a scream)...., wow so like yesterday i got the staples removed from my head and it felt sooooooo good. becasue like my head has been itching like crazy and i am not alouwd to scratch ....well becasue the staples are in the way....and becasue i was kinda scared of scratching and like opening up the wound and stuff, but any way, when they removed them, im guessing that normally the staples would hurt even thoungh last time it didn't really hurt, but my head was kinda itchy, and the sharp pains of them pulling the staples out kinda relived the itchyness. i was kinda wishing that i had more staples in my head becasue i was really itchy. but oh well. so yeah my head seems to be healing fine abd im okay.
it was weird because,like me, i really had a lot of tie to think about the whole situation and crap and im kinda glad that i hit my head. i guess it "knocked" some sence into me and of the world and that whole we don't have much time in this life crap. but any ways thanks for everything and i am okay now. i will be poasting the pictures as soon as my computer is up. its a pretty gnarley cut!

on to different things.

yes i was thinking about it when i was in the doctors office, why do they call it practicing medicine. i mean that kinda scares me. i don't want someone to be "practicing" on me. i want some one to actually be playing playing the game on me. you had enough time to practice in med school. any ways time to go. talk to all you guys later!
Friday, June 18th, 2004
1:51 pm
so i just got back from palm springs where i totally cracked my head open on the bottom of the pool. i had to go to the emergency room and get 5 staples in my head. i get them out tommorrow but i have some really cool pictures of it. i will poast iton myspace when my computer is back up. anyways just wanted to touch bases w/ every one and say HI-O
Wednesday, June 2nd, 2004
10:28 pm
motorcycle here i come!!!!
so i guess tomorrow my step dad is going down to the harley delership in irvine to get a new harley. that soo rocks! and i guess i am going to get the nigt hawk that we have in the garage to learn on and later on im going to get a honda CBR 600 or a yammaha R6? i don't know they are alll pretty cool.
its so coolto know people who work at the airport just in case you ever need to get bumped up into first class. so thanks randy.....not that you would read this but just a general shout out. any way things are going good. im propblobly going to get a job working as a life guard at the pool this summer. so yeah !

wow i just got back from the ymca gardena/carson. it was so tight i think im going to start going there a lot more. we started at 830 and finished up around 10. i actually did pretty well. i saw dosey form narbonne. he was just sitting there. but yeah all in all a good day.
Thursday, May 20th, 2004
5:54 pm
dude this is like the best show in the world. it i s like a spin off blind date, but it is on the spanish chanel....and well they speak only spanish. but its all good becasue i can kind of understand it anyway. and even so the best part is no matter what, they always end the date in a hot tub, and the hispanic camera guys are the best..... becasue they zooooooooooom in on like the girls butts or boobs. its soo funny. but yeah, i guess thats just me. has any one else seen it?
Sunday, May 2nd, 2004
4:43 pm
IM ALL-AMERICAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
so like you guys amy or may not know, i went to state championships this weekened in ventura and took 8TH PLACE IN CALIFRONIA. THAT MEANS IM RANKED THE 8TH BEST DIVER (on 3meter) in CALIFORNIA! THATS SO CRAZY. THIS ALSO MAKES ME AN ALL-AMERICAN.
anyway, this week was soo much fun. we stayed at the Holiday inn in ventura right onthe beach. that is the one thats right off the 101 freeway on California street. any way it was soo cool because when i walked out on too my balconey i could "literally" throw my phone in the water......"liiiiiiiterally!". plus elcamino gave us 70 for food and whatever else we wanted. so it ws like an all-expenses paid trip to ventura just to do 11 dives of a board( get 8th in cali. and all-american honors) and hang out w/ a bunch of divers. it was way fun.
but it like didn't really sink in untill the last ay when all of the divers were sitting in the hot tub staying warm talking about the meet and how long they have been diving for. they asked me and i was like 6 months. they all just looked at me and were like WHAT!.!?! i guess thaey have all been diving since they were like 5 and stuff. it was funny because they were like, "that means you will beat me next year?" and i was like i guess. but yeah ! 8th in california and ALL-AMERICAN! its cool becasue they only pick 16 divers in the united states to be all-american an im one of them. kick ASS!!!!
Monday, April 26th, 2004
2:32 pm
So today i went to school like normal and went to lunch with my mom. nothing spectacular or anything, right. but when we got home there was like 2 messages on the answering machine from my diving couch saying that i qualified for state championships. i guess 2 guys dropped some classes and were in-el. so yeah im going to go to the califonia state champinships and i only have been diving for like 6 months. kick ass. i don't like honking my own horn but damn.....BEEP BEEP!!!

in other news i think im goig to buy a toyota taccoma. and put a 6 inch lift on it with some sick rims and tires.

Friday, April 16th, 2004
8:37 pm
so today i had my southern California championships meet. today was 3 meter and tommorrow will be 1 meter. i finished in 8th place and im the second alternate to go to state. but the funny thing is that the guy in 7th place only beat me by 2.3 points. but anyway i had fun and i know i could have beat those guys if i had like went all out. any way tommorrow is 1 meter and i think im in the running. just wanted to say what up to every one. peace out!!!
Wednesday, March 31st, 2004
8:06 pm
girls listen up!
karla sent me this and i could kiss her. this is totally the rules of guys for girls to follow.
These are our rules! Please note... these are all numbered "1" ON =


1. Learn to work the toilet seat. You're a big girl. If it's up, put it =


We need it up, you need it down. You don't hear us complaining about =

you leaving it down.

1. Sunday sports. It's like the full moon or the changing of the tides. =

Let it be.

1. Shopping is NOT a sport. And no, we are never going to think of it =

that way.

1. Crying is blackmail.

1. Ask for what you want. Let us be clear on this one:

Subtle hints do not work!

Strong hints do not work!

Obvious hints do not work!

Just say it!

1. Yes and No are perfectly acceptable answers to almost every question.

1. Come to us with a problem only if you want help solving it. That's =

what we do.

Sympathy is what your girlfriends are for.

1. A headache that lasts for 17 months is a problem. See a doctor.

1. Anything we said 6 months ago is inadmissible in an argument.

In fact, all comments become null and void after 7 days.

1. If you won't dress like the Victoria's Secret girls,

don't expect us to act like soap opera guys.

1. If you think you're fat, you probably are.

Don't ask us.

1. If something we said can be interpreted two ways

and one of the ways makes you sad or angry,

we meant the other one.

1. You can either ask us to do something

or tell us how you want it done.

Not both.

If you already know best how to do it, just do it yourself.

1. Whenever possible,

please say whatever you have to say during commercials.=20

1. Christopher Columbus did not need directions and neither do we.

1. ALL men see in only 16 colors, like Windows default settings.

Peach, for example, is a fruit, not a color. Pumpkin is also a fruit.

We have no idea what mauve is.

1. If it itches, it will be scratched.

We do that.

1. If we ask what is wrong and you say "nothing,"

we will act like nothing's wrong.

We know you are lying, but it is just not worth the hassle.

1. If you ask a question you don't want an answer to,

expect an answer you don't want to hear.

1. When we have to go somewhere, absolutely anything you wear

is fine...Really.

1. Don't ask us what we're thinking about unless you are

prepared to discuss such topics as baseball, the shotgun formation,

or monster trucks.

1. You have enough clothes.

1. You have too many shoes.

1. I am in shape. Round is a shape.

1. Thank you for reading this.

Yes, I! know, I have to sleep on the couch tonight;

but did you know men really don't mind that?=20

It's like camping.
Sunday, March 28th, 2004
10:34 pm
today was hot!!!!!!.......the weathe i mean.
well today was kinda depressing. i woke up today around 5 30 inthe morning and just laid there thinking about my life......i came up with nothing except that i really like skateboarding, i have a lot of shoes, i have a lot of good friends who care about me and i care for them the same, and i tend to push people away.
anyways, when 830 rolled around i got up and and drove up to my dads house to help move the stuff from our ranch. we rented this big O'le truck and drove all the way down to lake elsinore. if you guys thought it was hot down here......omg it was like hell on earth there. any ways, it was kinda depressing knowing that the placed was sold and that we were moving away from it. a place that was supposed to be past down from generation to generation thrown away from one uncles greed. but thats an enireley different storry. anyway, my dad and i loaded up all the furniture and crap in the truck and took all the things that we wanted. while my dad was getting a haircut( my cusin who lives there used to work at supercutts and she used to live there well she kinda still does but she is in the process of moving)i dug threw my grandpa's closet and found a cool flannel and shirt so i took them. i walked out and my dad informed me that the quad that my grandpa had was officially mine now. i had dibs on it and every one said it was okay for me to have. they said my grandpa would have wanted me to have it anyway or something. so i took it out and rode around for a while. it was fun because i learned how to poop wheelies. it was tight. i rode one for a while. like 5 seconds or so. so i put it back and just looked down at our ranch. i practically grew up there. every other thursday, my grandparents would take my sister and i up and we would spen the weekend up there. and in the summeres, we would spend like 2 weeks or so up there. but yeah.its all going to be gone. i wish i could hit the lotto or something and buy it to keep it in the family but that will never happen. so yeah its kinda sad. but the quad was fun. its a 230 suzuki. it needs a little work and new tires but it still is kick ass.
did get a new guitar today. that did kinda brigten my day up.
i still can't stop thinking that i am the biggest jerk in the world. why i am i like this or even better why do i do this to people i care about. oh well im sorry again and i hope you find it in you to forgive me for any hardships i have ever put you guys threw.
Saturday, March 27th, 2004
11:07 pm
is it possible to not be possible?
i think one of the worst feelings ever is to know that you are the cause of someone feeling bad. like hurting someones feelings and all. and what is even worse is knowing that you really can't do anything about it except be there for them when they need you. but still i can't be cool with my self knowing that someone is horting or feeling bad all because of me.

sometimes i wonder about the world and how in a way it revolves around me and at the same time it has nothing to do with me. like when i was a kid i used to think that the human race was just toys to this king kong like race. like we were his/her toys and we did things because thats what he/she wanted us to do. are cars were like hotwheelds and our homes... malibu barbie dream homes.....even though my house is any thing but a dream house

any way i am sorry that i do the things i do to upset people. and im sorry i don't do the things that maqkes people happy all the time. i wish i could. belive me if i could then i would .....the only problem is that by doing so, i would more than likely be upsetting some one else or my self. gosh this plaeasing thing sucks.

in other news i would like to build a mini halph pipe ramp for my skateboard. i kinda started looking for free plans. i also have talked it over w/ my neighbor(who is a contractor/carpinter) we kinda guessed it to cos around 500-600 dollars. but hopefully i can do it and pay less than that. but yeah im hopingg for a 5 foot tall by 10ft wide by 13 ft long ramp. iono i hope it becomes areality.
Monday, March 22nd, 2004
9:29 pm
socialism sucks!!!!
just a few blurps;
im so glad that i have mead things clear and that my bububui isn't all sad and confuzzed anymore.

socialism pisses me off if you don't want to work and you think you should just be handed stuff get the hell out. go move to spain. i love the united states. i will say more later

thanks jan ban for the help!
Tuesday, March 16th, 2004
11:56 am
i can't explain
have yuo ever had the feeling that there is no way that you are ever going to please everyone. i feel like i have let so many people down and like i am this evil guy who goes around breaking peoples hearts. its just so hard for me though. i get so involved and attatched and i end up losing what it is that i have grown so fond of. im sorry for doing what i have done. i onnly wish that you can forgive me..............
Tuesday, March 9th, 2004
11:07 am
7th place!
so the meet on friday was cool. i though, and mostly everyone at first, that we would have to do all 11 dives on 1meter and another 11 dives on 3 meter. but when we got there they said that we could use any board we wanted and mix them so i did my 2 1/2, inward 1 1/2 and my foward dive .5 twist of the hight dive. the rest i did on low board. i actually had a strong showing finishing in 7th place out of 12. the compition was extremely high and my coach was proud of my performance. like my first dive scored 6's and 6.5's. my dad said there was no splash' only an inplosion. but to show how tuff the meet was,from 1st to 7th, was a differnce of 70 points and it was like 1st got 325, 2nd got 317, 3rd 300 and 4rth 290 5th 280 6th 270 7th 264. and then 8th was like 210. it was all good because all the other guys were returners and my team were the only freshmen. by the way, windelle, the 35 year old guy on my team, took first. so we one the dive meet.

my eagle qourt was pretty cool. it was kind of long but all in all good. thank you lucy for helping me out with my stuff!

last night my dad called me up and told me that my grandfather's date of pattening some part of the steam engine was on july 2nd 1985! thats my birthaday. what a ca-winky-dink!
i passed the english part of the police test and on sat i go for the physical. i hope and know i will do well.
Wednesday, March 3rd, 2004
9:54 pm
just a few updates.
today was a good day.
*i turned in my first college english essay.

*i finally got ovetr my complete fear of the high dive and threw my 2 1/2 front flip.

*and gardena police department sent me a leetr congratulating me on passing the written test. i now have to go to whittier to complete the physical test. upon passing, it they will give me a date to take my oral interview.sweet!

here is my div list for friday;
1. foward dive-pike
2. foward 1 1/2 fornt flip-pike
3. foward doubble front flip- tuck
4. reverse dive-pike
5. reverse summer sault-tuck
6. inward dive-pike
7. inward sumersault-tuck
8. back dive-staright
9. back sumersault-tuck
10. back flip half twist-pike
11. fowadr dive half twist- staight
everything is the same for 3 meter with the exception of inward 1 1/2 and 2 1/2 summer sault.
if i do all my dives to the best of my abilities then i could problobly place out of a field of 38 male divers
Sunday, February 29th, 2004
10:49 pm
Thursday, February 26th, 2004
1:12 pm
this sucks
yesterday, my father and i got a call from the royal king harbor marina informing us that our boat had broken loose from the docks. i guess oun neighbor tied like one or two lines to it so that it wouldn't float away or anything but not well enough to just levae it. so my father and i went out last night at 10:00 pm to go tie the boat down in the pooring rain. it was actually a neat expiriance. anyway, i guess on the ride home my cell phone fell out of my pocket and was left in my step grandpas car. i never realize3d how much i use that cell phone. anywho.......

yesterday i also took second place in the dive meet and last friday i took third. the weird thing about yesterday was we had to dive in the rain. it was weird because like when you jumped up, the rain would come down faster than usuall and then when you reached the peek hight, it like froze in time like some one hit the pause button, then as you fell into the water the rain followed you so it looked like something out of the matrix. it was pretty cool but it made me loose my focus. i could have gotten first but the judges mixed up my order and the rain just totally made me loose my focus after my second dive. but all good. you can't win them all.

so yeah. last night i wa watching all those news channels like fox news and cnn and crap and all they were talking about is the passion. which by the way i can't wait to see. but yeah i thgought it was so cool that JESUS CHRIST was on every ones mind and thats all the talked about. they even reported that it was the #2 opener of all time for movies that opened up on a wensday second only to star wars 1. it even beet out all the lord of the rings movies. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!!!!! I LOVE IT!
Thursday, February 19th, 2004
11:04 am
back to school...
ohhh, back to school, back to school, to prove to daddy that i'm not a fool. ive got my book bag, my shoes tied tight, i hope i don't get in a fight. ooooooohhhhh back to school.

any way, yeah i know its kinda late becasue ive been here since tuesday but i just havn't had any time to do anything lately. so here is some random thoughts that have been rolling around in my head since the last update;
-my classes are all pretty cool. my favortie being my fire tech class. the professor/retired betalian captain, is really cool and my type of guy. like he is really AMERICAN. like a more conservitive me however he is out there like i am. here is a quote from him that love.
"don't just leave the class with out doing the formal paper work. if you are going to drop, take the time and do a;ll the neccesarry paperwork to drop the class. its like taking a shit......you don't leave untill all the paper work is done!"
my english teacher is pretty cool and likes to cuss a lot., my math teacher is okay but i tink there is something wrong with him. its like he has an acciten ut then talks like a little kid. like the guy form frekinstien... the yessss masster guy. the whole class was laughing at the way he talks. and he had the most outragous outburts. it was great. but all in all, school is really fun and i am actually eager to learn and all that bull crap.
it was good seeing old friends from narbonne, peary, and even some from denker. although i do have to agree with lucy in sayig that it is a little weird seeing eachother at school again. but its all good.
- almost all the books i need for class i dont have to pay for. like the fire book my cousin has, and the math book, lucy is going to let m eborrow and we don't have a book for diving. english has like 3 novels and a grammer book that is only like 200 pages or so. its like 13 bucks i think so no worries and the one of the novels is that fredrick douglas book that i was supossed to read in chags but never got around to doing it. but i still think i have the book somewhere under my bed.
- im going to give my 2 weeks notice for vans. it was cool while it lasted but its just too much right now.
- tuesday i hurt my back in practice. i was attempting a back dive off the 3 meter board and went wrong in the air so i tried to stand up straight and just fall n feet first but landed on the small of my back. went to the trainers and they iced it and gave me electro shcok therapy(i think thats how you spell it?)
- i am now the team captain. go me!

yeah there is a lot of things going on now but it almost feels like nothing is going on? its kinda confuzing. its like my brain is overloading and deleting things...at least in my short term memory. i can't wait untill all my stuff is done and i have no worries(that will never happen... i think wayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy tooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo much!)
any who... im in the computer lab at school and its pretty cool i think. the computer is faster than the one i have at home so things just go staight to where i want them to. haha my chair is really squeaky and i cant stay stil for too long so i can tell that im startingto anoy people but "i don't care!"(said in high pitched sean/natalie/uncle richie voice)
Saturday, February 14th, 2004
1:03 am
i forgot to say something!!!
or ,maybe i already did....any way my mother talked to a detective for the gardena police today and he said to go threw with the caddet program and after three years ill be a shoe-inn. its tight cuz she told him all my qualifications and junk and he was like thats what gpd is looking for!!!. so yeah im all stoked. i tkae the test on febuary 21st. haha i forgot that feb has 28 days and i forgot how close my eagle court of honor is. ms salazar is coming to ....well i invited her.
Friday, February 13th, 2004
12:51 pm
random thoughts.......
if any one is interested, my uncle is selling his kawasaki ninja. there is nothing wrong with it in fact it runs great and has low miles and runs and looks good. my mom wobn't let me other whys i would buy it. but he needs the money to put a down payment on his new bike.hes selling it for somethng like 2400 or so.

why won't my mom let me get a tattoo?

i like watching those and1 shows on espn and that guy who says OH BABY!!

i still can'tbelive i won first place.

i can't wait untill my truck is done. its been under construction for like 2 or 3 years now. its soo close to being able to drive it in all the gears.

i missed the super bowl game and it kinda pisses me off becasue i keep seeing the comercials and the jannet jackson thing and it fills like they are trying to rub it in.

i get to take my test on the 21st of febuary for the gardena police department to be a caddet. it is closer to whati want to do with my life and the pay is way better than the vans shop.

my eagle court of honor is coming up fast. march 6. i wonder how thats going to go?

i sooo can't wait till the first day of school.

sometimes i wish i was like a professional basketball player or somethng. mtv cribs messed everything up fpr me. now im not satified with like an okay house or a normal car. i wont spinners and like a huge house and all that crap.

i also wish i was a better skateboarder tahn i am

i wish that i could sometimes get in to peoples heads and figure out what they are thinking and how they truley fill about me.

haha this is starting to be a realy annoying journal huh?

one of the many thingsthat troubles me is that i am a jack of all trad, but master of none.

someone is always goingto be better.

haha. this original update was going to be all my crushes of all time and stuff like that but i guess its not a bright i dea to do that. especially when you have a girlfriend....a good one at that.

when i was younger i wanted to be a professional wrestler!!!!

i guess this is it for now.
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